<font color="white">Leaving home for boarding school</font> <font color="white">is brave for any 13-year-old;</font> <font color="white">harder still when you move to a</font> <font color="white">house where everyone communicates in</font> <font color="white">a language you don't understand.</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">Captions by Anne Langford.</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">www.tvnz.co.nz/access-services</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">Captions were made possible</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">with funding from NZ On Air.</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">Copyright</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">TVNZ Access Services 2012</font> <font color="white">Gaby Evans has grown up in a sleepy</font> <font color="white">town on the Coromandel coast.</font> <font color="white">She's deaf, so that</font> <font color="white">suited her till now.</font> <font color="cyan">I can hear, like, loud sounds,</font> <font color="cyan">but not quiet sounds.</font> <font color="cyan">I mean, I could hear a lawnmower or</font> <font color="cyan">an aeroplane fine without my hearing</font> <font color="cyan">aid,</font> <font color="cyan">but it's the quiet sounds</font> <font color="cyan">that I can't hear.</font> <font color="white">Gaby's the only deaf girl in her</font> <font color="white">community and at her school.</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">SCHOOLCHILDREN TALK INDISTINCTLY</font> <font color="white">Soon she's moving here.</font> <font color="white">Kelston School in Auckland is one of</font> <font color="white">only two schools in NZ that caters</font> <font color="white">to deaf students.</font> <font color="white">She's just 13, and she'll be moving</font> <font color="white">hundreds of kilometres from home.</font> <font color="cyan">I have to learn sign language,</font> <font color="cyan">which I haven't really used since</font> <font color="cyan">I was 2.</font> <font color="cyan">And, um,...</font> <font color="cyan">I... I mean, I know... I've got a</font> <font color="cyan">lot of people here, and I know,</font> <font color="cyan">like, every bit of Whitianga,</font> <font color="cyan">but it will be, like, I have to</font> <font color="cyan">learn how to get around Auckland,</font> <font color="cyan">like, a whole new way of getting</font> <font color="cyan">around, including hopping on the</font> <font color="cyan">bus,</font> <font color="cyan">and, um, I mean, it's going to be</font> <font color="cyan">quite different for me cos... Yeah.</font> <font color="yellow">She is different from the other</font> <font color="yellow">kids, but she feels that the other</font> <font color="yellow">kids also see her</font> <font color="yellow">as being an outsider and as being</font> <font color="yellow">different, so she's going to go into</font> <font color="yellow">an environment</font> <font color="yellow">where there are other kids who</font> <font color="yellow">are just getting on with it;</font> <font color="yellow">who are also deaf,</font> <font color="yellow">and so I hope that she'll be able to</font> <font color="yellow">let that side of her... sort of,</font> <font color="yellow">fears and self-consciousness go,</font> <font color="yellow">and just get on with being Gaby,</font> <font color="yellow">and not being Gaby, the deaf girl.</font> <font color="yellow">So, what do we need to mix it with?</font> <font color="yellow">So, what do we need to mix it with?</font> <font color="cyan">A knife.</font> <font color="yellow">So, what do we need to mix it with?</font> <font color="cyan">A knife.</font> <font color="yellow">A knife.</font> <font color="yellow">Or maybe even two.</font> <font color="yellow">Yeah?</font> <font color="yellow">Yeah?</font> <font color="cyan">OK.</font> <font color="yellow">Then you can go like that.</font> <font color="cyan">I'll take the good-looking knife.</font> <font color="cyan">I'll take the good-looking knife.</font> <font color="yellow">Or we can do it together, OK?</font> <font color="white">Her limited hearing is finely tuned</font> <font color="white">to her mother's voice, but mostly</font> <font color="white">she gets by just lip-reading.</font> <font color="yellow">OK. And then just tip this</font> <font color="yellow">out into the middle of it.</font> <font color="yellow">'It wasn't clear from the</font> <font color="yellow">outset that Gaby was deaf,</font> <font color="yellow">'and she was slow to reach</font> <font color="yellow">all of her milestones.'</font> <font color="yellow">'They did, um, a hearing test. I</font> <font color="yellow">asked them to. I said, "I think she</font> <font color="yellow">can't hear."</font> <font color="yellow">'They said, "Well, we'll test her."</font> <font color="yellow">And then they came back and said,</font> <font color="yellow">"Ooh, your daughter's deaf."'</font> <font color="yellow">OK. Can you get me the backing</font> <font color="yellow">sheet, the one I make shortbread on?</font> <font color="yellow">Um, I'm asking you to get me the</font> <font color="yellow">baking sheet. That's the metal</font> <font color="yellow">thing.</font> <font color="cyan">Oh, that one.</font> <font color="cyan">You don't need the baking paper?</font> <font color="cyan">Oh, that one.</font> <font color="cyan">You don't need the baking paper?</font> <font color="yellow">No, not the baking paper.</font> <font color="cyan">I used sign language when I was</font> <font color="cyan">really little, but as the hearing</font> <font color="cyan">aids got better and as I got older</font> <font color="cyan">and, um, my brain got used to</font> <font color="cyan">actually hearing sound, I began to,</font> <font color="cyan">like, lose my use of sign language</font> <font color="cyan">until I,... like, now I don't</font> <font color="cyan">use sign language any more.</font> <font color="cyan">I think they're more tied up to the</font> <font color="cyan">stereotypes, maybe because we're in</font> <font color="cyan">a small town.</font> <font color="cyan">Deaf people are like...</font> <font color="cyan">they go to special schools only,</font> <font color="cyan">and disabled people, um,</font> <font color="cyan">have their own communities.</font> <font color="cyan">I generally have to improve myself.</font> <font color="cyan">Everyone in this school is, like,</font> <font color="cyan">um, hearing, except for me.</font> <font color="lime">Look at the sheet.</font> <font color="lime">We need to figure out the height.</font> <font color="cyan">When I got this hearing aid a few</font> <font color="cyan">years ago, I didn't really, um, need</font> <font color="cyan">to put my hand up so much</font> <font color="cyan">to make the teacher repeat himself.</font> <font color="cyan">You guys, you guys, does Mr Ralph</font> <font color="cyan">want me to...? (SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY)</font> <font color="cyan">When I was 5, I wasn't quite talking</font> <font color="cyan">that well. As I've gotten older,</font> <font color="cyan">I've gotten stronger.</font> <font color="cyan">My balance is OK. I mean, when</font> <font color="cyan">I was little I had to be careful,</font> <font color="cyan">but, um, like, um, if there's a</font> <font color="cyan">whole crowd of people, I'm fine. But</font> <font color="cyan">my mum thinks I'm not.</font> <font color="yellow">I feel protective of Gaby</font> <font color="yellow">in a physical sense,</font> <font color="yellow">so, um, when she was smaller, I was</font> <font color="yellow">always conscious of her falling.</font> <font color="yellow">Because of her cerebral palsy,</font> <font color="yellow">she was prone to falling a lot.</font> <font color="yellow">And when she was little, she</font> <font color="yellow">couldn't hold up her own head,</font> <font color="yellow">um, and her legs are very stiff.</font> <font color="yellow">Now she's learnt how</font> <font color="yellow">to cope with it.</font> <font color="cyan">Bye.</font> <font color="yellow">When she goes to the city, I'm a bit</font> <font color="yellow">concerned about just really</font> <font color="yellow">practical things</font> <font color="yellow">like traffic, and crossing the road,</font> <font color="yellow">not being able to hear what's</font> <font color="yellow">coming,</font> <font color="yellow">because we don't have any</font> <font color="yellow">traffic here to speak of.</font> <font color="yellow">This is huge in the scale of</font> <font color="yellow">what Gaby's done until now.</font> <font color="yellow">I don't think that she</font> <font color="yellow">realises how big it is.</font> <font color="yellow">It'll start to sink in when she's</font> <font color="yellow">packing and getting ready to go.</font> <font color="cyan">All right, you can go.</font> <font color="white">In Auckland, Gaby will live in a</font> <font color="white">boarding house with other deaf</font> <font color="white">students</font> <font color="white">and communicate using</font> <font color="white">NZ sign language.</font> <font color="white">Gaby only knows a couple of words,</font> <font color="white">so she's trying to teach herself</font> <font color="white">before the big move.</font> <font color="cyan">I only know my name.</font> <font color="cyan">If I were to say it, like</font> <font color="cyan">introducing myself, I would go...</font> <font color="cyan">name,...</font> <font color="cyan">my,...</font> <font color="cyan">and then G,...</font> <font color="cyan">A,...</font> <font color="cyan">B,...</font> <font color="cyan">Y.</font> <font color="cyan">And that's pretty much all I know.</font> <font color="yellow">I knew of Kelston School for the</font> <font color="yellow">Deaf. I've known about that school</font> <font color="yellow">since I was a kid.</font> <font color="yellow">Um, I didn't realise it was an</font> <font color="yellow">option for Gaby, though.</font> <font color="yellow">I always, um, thought that it</font> <font color="yellow">was for the profoundly deaf.</font> <font color="cyan">It can get a little bit confusing</font> <font color="cyan">cos I do know that when you're,</font> <font color="cyan">like, asking a question,</font> <font color="cyan">like, we go, like, more open</font> <font color="cyan">face, and they go, like, ang...</font> <font color="cyan">like just like an angry face.</font> <font color="cyan">But it was, like... And, um...</font> <font color="cyan">But usually we go, like, open face.</font> <font color="yellow">When we did go and have a look, we</font> <font color="yellow">realised that she would not actually</font> <font color="yellow">be at a school for the Deaf;</font> <font color="yellow">that she would be at</font> <font color="yellow">Kelston Girls College,</font> <font color="yellow">um, under the care of</font> <font color="yellow">the Deaf Education Centre.</font> <font color="cyan">I've pretty much grown up, like,</font> <font color="cyan">talking orally, and I think it would</font> <font color="cyan">be hard to turn off my voice.</font> <font color="cyan">But, um, if I do speak, like, um,...</font> <font color="cyan">I would pretty much be able to</font> <font color="cyan">lip-read, so I think they might</font> <font color="cyan">understand a bit</font> <font color="cyan">along with, like, the signing.</font> <font color="yellow">And so, yeah, in order to find her</font> <font color="yellow">peers, she has to go and, um, meet</font> <font color="yellow">other people who are deaf.</font> <font color="yellow">You're not really aware of what</font> <font color="yellow">there is until you get out there and</font> <font color="yellow">see it,</font> <font color="yellow">and so I-I-I thought that this move</font> <font color="yellow">to Auckland could be really good for</font> <font color="yellow">her.</font> <font color="cyan">I don't really get homesick, except</font> <font color="cyan">I'll miss the dogs and all the other</font> <font color="cyan">animals.</font> <font color="yellow">She's reached the step of knowing</font> <font color="yellow">that,... well, that her mother</font> <font color="yellow">sucks,</font> <font color="yellow">and that, you know, her mother</font> <font color="yellow">knows nothing about life and...</font> <font color="yellow">Um, everything about what</font> <font color="yellow">we do is... is, um, wrong.</font> <font color="yellow">I think that's a natural way</font> <font color="yellow">for a lot of kids to feel.</font> <font color="cyan">Um, I really only have two chores.</font> <font color="cyan">Well, um, I have to do my washing,</font> <font color="cyan">empty the compost.</font> <font color="cyan">Uh, sometimes helping with the</font> <font color="cyan">dishes, like, drying, and sometimes</font> <font color="cyan">have to wash it.</font> <font color="yellow">What do you reckon's going to be</font> <font color="yellow">hardest about next year, living away</font> <font color="yellow">from home`?</font> <font color="cyan">I won't miss you.</font> <font color="cyan">I won't miss you.</font> <font color="yellow">You won't miss me?</font> <font color="cyan">This is my mum's alternative</font> <font color="cyan">lifestyle, but it doesn't really</font> <font color="cyan">suit me,</font> <font color="cyan">so that's why I'm looking forward</font> <font color="cyan">to, um, living in Auckland, cos</font> <font color="cyan">everything's so close.</font> <font color="cyan">We'll go that way.</font> <font color="cyan">We'll go that way.</font> <font color="yellow">Down there, isn't it?</font> <font color="cyan">We'll go that way.</font> <font color="yellow">Down there, isn't it?</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah. In here.</font> <font color="yellow">With Gaby leaving home, I think that</font> <font color="yellow">it's really starting to sink in for</font> <font color="yellow">her.</font> <font color="yellow">Probably had more hugs in the past</font> <font color="yellow">few days than I've had in the past</font> <font color="yellow">few years.</font> <font color="cyan">No, that was for something else.</font> <font color="cyan">No, that was for something else.</font> <font color="yellow">(LAUGHS) That was</font> <font color="yellow">for something else.</font> <font color="yellow">So, um, yeah. I've been waiting to</font> <font color="yellow">see the reality, sort of, sink in</font> <font color="yellow">for Gaby,</font> <font color="yellow">and I think it has now that, um,</font> <font color="yellow">we're sort of here, really.</font> <font color="cyan">What do you mean?</font> <font color="yellow">Well, you weren't very, um,... You</font> <font color="yellow">weren't very interested in talking</font> <font color="yellow">about it.</font> <font color="yellow">You weren't very, sort of, excited</font> <font color="yellow">or anything. I was the one who was</font> <font color="yellow">all nervous...</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah.</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah.</font> <font color="yellow">...for you.</font> <font color="yellow">You haven't been nervous at all.</font> <font color="yellow">You haven't been nervous at all.</font> <font color="cyan">No, I'm not a nervous person.</font> <font color="yellow">You haven't been nervous at all.</font> <font color="cyan">No, I'm not a nervous person.</font> <font color="yellow">No.</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">DOOR OPENS</font> <font color="cyan">You hand me that.</font> <font color="cyan">You hand me that.</font> <font color="yellow">OK.</font> <font color="cyan">I don't really know</font> <font color="cyan">much about Deaf culture.</font> <font color="cyan">This time I'll be experiencing it,</font> <font color="cyan">but I'm not exactly sure what the</font> <font color="cyan">differences are.</font> <font color="yellow">Take one more thing?</font> <font color="yellow">Take one more thing?</font> <font color="cyan">OK.</font> <font color="yellow">Hello.</font> <font color="yellow">Welcome. (LAUGHS)</font> <font color="cyan">Hi.</font> <font color="yellow">Gaby.</font> <font color="yellow">Gaby.</font> <font color="lime">Nice to meet you.</font> <font color="yellow">Gaby.</font> <font color="lime">Nice to meet you.</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah.</font> <font color="lime">Do you sign?</font> <font color="lime">Do you sign?</font> <font color="cyan">Not really. I haven't learnt. I've</font> <font color="cyan">been oral most... all my life.</font> <font color="lime">You want that one? Are you sure? OK.</font> <font color="cyan">It looks pretty good.</font> <font color="cyan">Cool.</font> <font color="lime">Oh, do you know about this? You</font> <font color="lime">know, if you can't hear people</font> <font color="lime">knocking,</font> <font color="lime">it... flashes.</font> <font color="cyan">Oh, that's cool.</font> <font color="yellow">Do you like the room? Yeah.</font> <font color="yellow">Do you want that room?</font> <font color="yellow">You don't want the big room?</font> <font color="yellow">Do you want that room?</font> <font color="yellow">You don't want the big room?</font> <font color="cyan">I like that room.</font> <font color="yellow">Like this one.</font> <font color="yellow">Yeah?</font> <font color="yellow">Yeah?</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah.</font> <font color="yellow">Yeah?</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah.</font> <font color="yellow">OK.</font> <font color="white">SIGN TRANSLATOR: When I saw Gaby,</font> <font color="white">when she first came in, and she's a</font> <font color="white">beautiful young woman,</font> <font color="white">and she was welcomed here</font> <font color="white">in our traditional manner.</font> <font color="white">She had a good look around,</font> <font color="white">and Mum was here with her.</font> <font color="white">And she was looking at Mum, and I</font> <font color="white">was watching how she was lip-reading</font> <font color="white">Mum,</font> <font color="white">very carefully to understand</font> <font color="white">what she was saying.</font> <font color="white">But when I signed her, she didn't</font> <font color="white">have any idea of what I was saying.</font> <font color="lime">Most of them are, like, hearing</font> <font color="lime">impaired. They come from a</font> <font color="lime">mainstream school.</font> <font color="lime">They come straight here into our</font> <font color="lime">Deaf environment, and they'll say...</font> <font color="lime">Well, we know straight away because,</font> <font color="lime">um, cos they're standing by</font> <font color="lime">themself,</font> <font color="lime">so I'll try and encourage</font> <font color="lime">them to come in.</font> <font color="lime">I want to introduce</font> <font color="lime">you to two students.</font> <font color="lime">I want to introduce</font> <font color="lime">you to two students.</font> <font color="cyan">OK.</font> <font color="lime">This is, um...</font> <font color="lime">You want to tell her your name?</font> <font color="lime">My name is L-E-R-O-Y.</font> <font color="lime">And my sign name is Leroy. ></font> <font color="cyan">My... How do I say in sign...?</font> <font color="lime">My name...</font> <font color="lime">My name...</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah.</font> <font color="lime">My name...</font> <font color="lime">Gaby.</font> <font color="lime">Yeah, that's good. Gaby is her name.</font> <font color="lime">Not her sign name. Do you have a</font> <font color="lime">sign name?</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah.</font> <font color="lime">What is it?</font> <font color="lime">Gaby? Oh, Gaby.</font> <font color="lime">We tell the other students, the</font> <font color="lime">older ones, to, you know,...</font> <font color="lime">'They're shy.</font> <font color="lime">'Please teach...' They say, 'Fine.'</font> <font color="lime">And it sort of gives them a little</font> <font color="lime">bit of pride,</font> <font color="lime">because they like to be the one, you</font> <font color="lime">know, the older brother who will</font> <font color="lime">teach and show them around. Yeah.</font> <font color="yellow">So, Gaby's moved in,</font> <font color="yellow">and I've left her there.</font> <font color="yellow">Um, yeah, I'm just</font> <font color="yellow">hoping that she's...</font> <font color="yellow">she's going to be able to</font> <font color="yellow">communicate with everybody.</font> <font color="yellow">That's the big thing from now on.</font> <font color="yellow">She doesn't, um, know sign language,</font> <font color="yellow">and although some of the kids can</font> <font color="yellow">both sign and use speech,</font> <font color="yellow">um, there are also kids there</font> <font color="yellow">who are profoundly deaf.</font> <font color="lime">Most of the time, normally the new</font> <font color="lime">students we have that have, um,</font> <font color="lime">homesickness</font> <font color="lime">because they're not used to us, um,</font> <font color="lime">not used to having staff here, um,</font> <font color="lime">new friends.</font> <font color="yellow">I'm really proud of her, you know,</font> <font color="yellow">being willing to leave home and to</font> <font color="yellow">leave everything she knows.</font> <font color="lime">We try and keep them as close</font> <font color="lime">as we can to our office.</font> <font color="lime">So if we can hear them cry, we just</font> <font color="lime">go up,... (WHISPERS) 'Don't cry.'</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">POIGNANT MUSIC</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">INDISTINCT CONVERSATIONS</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">DISHES CLATTER</font> <font color="lime">Mm?</font> <font color="cyan">Can I help with anything?</font> <font color="cyan">I'll put that away for you.</font> <font color="cyan">OK, what...?</font> <font color="cyan">Thank you.</font> <font color="white">We provide a homelike environment</font> <font color="white">here for students,</font> <font color="white">so when they come and stay in</font> <font color="white">the residence, they feel like</font> <font color="white">they're warmly welcomed.</font> <font color="white">And it's important that the parents</font> <font color="white">and family feel that they're welcome</font> <font color="white">here as well.</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">CHAIRS CLATTER</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">WOMAN SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">WOMAN SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY</font> <font color="cyan">Mm.</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">WOMAN SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">WOMAN SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY</font> <font color="cyan">Mm.</font> <font color="lime">How old are you? ></font> <font color="lime">How do you like coming to,</font> <font color="lime">um, Totara Village?</font> <font color="cyan">It's OK.</font> <font color="lime">How is it, like, meeting all of us?</font> <font color="lime">How is it, like, meeting all of us?</font> <font color="cyan">It's OK.</font> <font color="yellow">For me it was so different. Like,</font> <font color="yellow">when I first came here, I was really</font> <font color="yellow">shy,</font> <font color="yellow">and then I met them, and now</font> <font color="yellow">I get along with them like that.</font> <font color="lime">How's school? ></font> <font color="lime">How's school? ></font> <font color="cyan">Mm, yeah.</font> <font color="yellow">I started here in 2009. When I first</font> <font color="yellow">started here, I was, like, nervous,</font> <font color="yellow">eh. Missing your family.</font> <font color="yellow">On the first day. Quite cool</font> <font color="yellow">meeting the other deaf people.</font> <font color="lime">You're, like, the youngest,</font> <font color="lime">and I'm the oldest. ></font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">ALL TALK INDISTINCTLY</font> <font color="white">Within weeks, Gaby's talking</font> <font color="white">about heading back home.</font> <font color="cyan">The buildings are very old and</font> <font color="cyan">they're kind of very echoey, so they</font> <font color="cyan">amplify the noise.</font> <font color="cyan">In the classes, everyone's always</font> <font color="cyan">talking and being really loud.</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">ALL TALK NOISILY</font> <font color="cyan">So, I might go back cos</font> <font color="cyan">it's quieter there.</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah, it's really hard. Everyone's</font> <font color="cyan">talking over each other and just to</font> <font color="cyan">be heard.</font> <font color="cyan">And they like making a lot of noise.</font> <font color="cyan">They want to be loud.</font> <font color="white">In the weeks since Gaby moved here,</font> <font color="white">her mother started on a new career</font> <font color="white">path,</font> <font color="white">training as a teacher and moving</font> <font color="white">away from the family home on the</font> <font color="white">Coromandel.</font> <font color="white">For Gaby, it's tough. She's</font> <font color="white">struggling in the classroom where</font> <font color="white">she can't hear the teacher.</font> <font color="yellow">She's going to have to try really</font> <font color="yellow">hard to listen to what the teacher</font> <font color="yellow">is saying</font> <font color="yellow">to get the end of... the ends of</font> <font color="yellow">each word ` the speeches.</font> <font color="yellow">When the teachers are talking, it's</font> <font color="yellow">the speech pattern... it's the</font> <font color="yellow">sounds that are really quiet</font> <font color="yellow">that she has to listen carefully to,</font> <font color="yellow">and she didn't really like it.</font> <font color="yellow">She sat there with her bag,</font> <font color="yellow">and when the teacher called her,</font> <font color="yellow">she just went, 'Yes, miss.'</font> <font color="yellow">And she didn't look at the class.</font> <font color="white">After school, Gaby goes back to the</font> <font color="white">quiet of the boarding house.</font> <font color="white">She can't communicate here as she</font> <font color="white">still hasn't learnt to sign.</font> <font color="white">She's missed several days of school.</font> <font color="cyan">It has been hard, but, um, I can't</font> <font color="cyan">give up, but I want to. Still, I</font> <font color="cyan">can't give up</font> <font color="cyan">because Mum's got teacher training,</font> <font color="cyan">and she's going all over the place,</font> <font color="cyan">and so I have to stay here and live</font> <font color="cyan">here cos, I mean, I can't because</font> <font color="cyan">she won't let me give up.</font> <font color="white">SIGN INTERPRETER: At the beginning</font> <font color="white">she was homesick, saying she wanted</font> <font color="white">to go home</font> <font color="white">and back to her own school. So the</font> <font color="white">staff and I spent quite a bit of</font> <font color="white">time with her in the second week,</font> <font color="white">saying, 'You know, it's going to</font> <font color="white">take time. You're gonna be fine.'</font> <font color="yellow">I tried to be compassionate and to</font> <font color="yellow">be sympathetic, but it went on for</font> <font color="yellow">so long,</font> <font color="yellow">that, in the end, I basically said,</font> <font color="yellow">'Look, you've promised to do this.</font> <font color="yellow">You've promised to give it a year,</font> <font color="yellow">'and, um, there's nowhere</font> <font color="yellow">to come home to now.'</font> <font color="white">Finally, everything</font> <font color="white">falls into place.</font> <font color="cyan">My homesickness is improving.</font> <font color="cyan">Yeah. So, I'm getting better.</font> <font color="white">Gaby's sign-language skills</font> <font color="white">are improving too.</font> <font color="yellow">SIGN INTERPRETER: When she gets</font> <font color="yellow">home, she's absolutely worn out</font> <font color="yellow">because she spends so much of her</font> <font color="yellow">time concentrating on signing here</font> <font color="yellow">to pick it up.</font> <font color="cyan">I've still got a long way to go.</font> <font color="cyan">Um, I haven't learnt very much.</font> <font color="cyan">Um, I mean, I've learned some,</font> <font color="cyan">but I just still really can't</font> <font color="cyan">hold a conversation yet,</font> <font color="cyan">because when I do, sometimes people</font> <font color="cyan">go my signs are all over the place</font> <font color="cyan">and stuff.</font> <font color="yellow">SIGN INTERPRETER: Her</font> <font color="yellow">signing is really improving.</font> <font color="yellow">I can say to her,</font> <font color="yellow">'How was school today?'</font> <font color="yellow">And her reply, instead of being one</font> <font color="yellow">sign, it's two or three signs back,</font> <font color="yellow">and it's got to the point now where</font> <font color="yellow">I can tease her a little bit and</font> <font color="yellow">say,</font> <font color="yellow">'You want to go home?' And she says,</font> <font color="yellow">'No, no, no. I want to stay.'</font> <font color="red"></font><font color="yellow">ALL LAUGH AND GIGGLE</font> <font color="cyan">What happened?</font> <font color="lime">Do you have nail polish? ></font> <font color="lime">Do you have nail polish? ></font> <font color="cyan">No.</font> <font color="cyan">The noise is like... in the classes,</font> <font color="cyan">I've gotten used to it.</font> <font color="cyan">Um, well, at first, it was, like,</font> <font color="cyan">'Whoa. This is way noisier than</font> <font color="cyan">all the kids in my old school were.'</font> <font color="cyan">Well, I mean, I had gotten used to</font> <font color="cyan">it, so by comparison, they're</font> <font color="cyan">probably way quieter.</font> <font color="yellow">And I just love hearing about the</font> <font color="yellow">people and the things... the people</font> <font color="yellow">that she's seeing,</font> <font color="yellow">and the things that she's doing,</font> <font color="yellow">um, while she's in Auckland.</font> <font color="yellow">So that gives us a lot more to talk</font> <font color="yellow">about, and it's really broadened...</font> <font color="yellow">it's broadened both of our worlds.</font> <font color="cyan">SIGN INTERPRETER: Quite often,</font> <font color="cyan">you'll see that within a matter of</font> <font color="cyan">weeks.</font> <font color="cyan">These students have grown up</font> <font color="cyan">speaking and lip-reading.</font> <font color="cyan">They're learning how to sign very</font> <font color="cyan">quickly ` mixing with their deaf</font> <font color="cyan">peers as well.</font> <font color="cyan">And I think that's great.</font> <font color="cyan">They can access both worlds ` the</font> <font color="cyan">Deaf world and the hearing world.</font> <font color="white">Gaby's celebrating her 14th</font> <font color="white">birthday. Life away from home has</font> <font color="white">really grown on her.</font> <font color="cyan">I find it cool to learn a whole</font> <font color="cyan">different culture, another language,</font> <font color="cyan">and make good friends.</font> <font color="cyan">And they accept me for who I am.</font> <font color="lime">Blow it! ></font> <font color="white">Next week on Attitude,</font> <font color="white">Sophie Pascoe was an unknown</font> <font color="white">15-year-old when she burst on to</font> <font color="white">the Paralympic scene in 2008.</font> <font color="white">She won three gold medals</font> <font color="white">and a silver.</font> <font color="white">She will arrive in London with a</font> <font color="white">huge expectation to succeed.</font> <font color="yellow">Since our achievements in Beijing,</font> <font color="yellow">we're the hunted now,</font> <font color="yellow">and to be able to retain that</font> <font color="yellow">is the hardest thing possible.</font> <font color="white">For the last four years, her sole</font> <font color="white">focus has been the London</font> <font color="white">Paralympics.</font> <font color="yellow">I have this thing inside of me</font> <font color="yellow">that's just life's too short, and</font> <font color="yellow">you've got to really make the most</font> <font color="yellow">of what's been given to you, and I</font> <font color="yellow">think swimming's been given to me,</font> <font color="yellow">and I'm just making the most of it.</font> <font color="white">The fifth annual Attitude Awards</font> <font color="white">will be celebrated on November 29th</font> <font color="white">at the prestigious Viaduct Events</font> <font color="white">Centre in Auckland.</font> <font color="yellow">Once again we're here to celebrate</font> <font color="yellow">the achievements and the</font> <font color="yellow">contributions</font> <font color="yellow">of some of the 17% of NZers</font> <font color="yellow">who live with disability.</font> <font color="white">People are recognised for excellence</font> <font color="white">in sport, art, employment,</font> <font color="white">and making a difference</font> <font color="white">in their communities.</font> <font color="cyan">My congratulations, and</font> <font color="cyan">congratulations to all of you</font> <font color="cyan">are due to the finalists in the</font> <font color="cyan">various category awards here</font> <font color="cyan">tonight.</font> <font color="lime">Thank you for giving me</font> <font color="lime">this opportunity.</font> <font color="white">Nominations are open this week.</font> <font color="yellow">It's my first time here. It's an</font> <font color="yellow">absolute pleasure. I've just been</font> <font color="yellow">blown away.</font> <font color="white">Bye.</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">Captions by Anne Langford.</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">www.tvnz.co.nz/access-services</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">Captions were made possible</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">with funding from NZ On Air.</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">Copyright</font> <font color="cyan"></font><font color="blue">TVNZ Access Services 2012</font>