1 WOMAN: I don't... I don't really pray, but... ..if you could just... ..help me out here, I promise... 105. 105! Oh, my God! OK. OK, run a bath. Call the doctor. Just run a bath. Get her into the bath. Dr Curtis - 655... Oh, he won't be there. Thermometer. What is a thermometer? Mercury! How does it even work? Oh, maybe I can page him. Susan! Susan! Mommy needs you to get up now. I'm cold. I know. I know. Hang on. Hang on. (Cries) It just feels cold because you're so hot. Susan! Susan, stay with me. Susan! (Cries) Susan! WOMAN ON P.A.: ER cardiologist on call... Has she been disoriented, confused? She said that she saw a man in her bedroom. Are you cold? OK, swing it. Swing it wide now. WOMAN: Do it, people. MAN: What have we got? Just give her O2. HEART MONITOR BEEPS How's her breathing? (Susan breathes with difficulty) ETHEREAL MUSIC HEART MONITOR FLAT-LINES Are you God? No. My name is Seth. Where are we going? Home. Can Mommy come? No. (Susan's mother cries) Oh, my God! She won't understand. She will. Some day. TENDER MUSIC Can I ask you something? Yes. What did you like best? Pyjamas. TENDER MUSIC CONTINUES She definitely knew what she liked. Pyjamas? Flannel. With feet. Pyjamas. Hmm. Excellent choice. What else? In the elevator of the Bradbury Building, a man touched a woman's bare skin by accident but it made her turn and look at him in such a way. And they...? Yes. That was a good day. Do you ever wonder what that would be like? Touch? No. Yes, you do. SIREN WAILS BELOW Occasionally, yes. Touch. AMBIENT TECHNO MUSIC I'm not asking for it every night. Just twice a week! Blue eyes. He's never gonna leave her. 20 minutes, 20 minutes! Everything in this damn city is 20 minutes! It's never 20 minutes! AMBIENT MUSIC CONTINUES WHISTLE BLOWS SIREN WHOOPS My ass on a stool all day! She always gets the good chair. (Woman mutters in Spanish) Six pounds, four ounces! My daughter has a daughter. $20,000 at 21%. Pay it off with another card at 14%. Oh, shit! Federal 595, heavy. Slow immediately to match preceding aircraft. Over. Jesus! Wake up! Wake up! SETH: The little girl asked me if she could be an angel. (Cassiel laughs) They all want wings. I never know what to say. Tell them the truth. Angels aren't human. We were never human. What if I just make her a little pair of wings out of paper? Tell her the truth. I told her. And? How did she take it? She said, "What good would wings be "if you couldn't feel the wind on your face?" ETHEREAL CHORAL MUSIC HORNS BLARE CAR RADIO: Downtown L.A. - there are delays. No shit? Jesus! CACOPHONY CONTINUES AMBIENT TECHNO MUSIC SIREN WAILS PAGER BEEPS WOMAN ON P.A.: Dr Byrne, please dial the operator. Dr Byrne, please dial the operator. What have we got? 50-year-old male. Had a huge anterior wall MI this morning. Collapsed while jogging. Paramedics resuscitated him but his EKG's pretty ugly. He's hypertensive. This diagonal looks tight too. Who cast him? Rosenberg. All right, then. The patient wants to meet you. HEART MONITOR BEEPS He's pretty out of it. NURSE: The doctor's here. We're just going to pull the 32 today. MAN: OK. Sucker. Jimi. 'RED HOUSE' BY JIMI HENDRIX Vein. The kid's started walking. Three unassisted steps. Got it on video? I wasn't even there. Oh, failed as a father already. How does that feel? (Laughs) Retrograde on. Come down to half flow. Give me a little volume. Coming down to half flow. Here's your volume. Ready to come off? Ready. OK, let's come off. We're coming down. We're clamped and off bypass. HEART MONITOR FLAT-LINES MACHINE BEEPS 'FURTHER ON UP THE ROAD' BY ERIC CLAPTON Oh, shit. What are you missing? A sponge. Bummer. Got it. SONG: # Further on up the road # You're gonna hurt someone like you hurt me... # Thank you, everybody. Presbyterian's on line 2. Watch his rhythm. It's going to be irritable. # Like you hurt me # Further on up the road... # She's getting good. Yeah, she's getting that attitude too. GETTING an attitude? HIGH-PITCHED RAPID BEEPING Oh, shit. V-tac! Christ. Paddles! Kill the music. Get her back in here. Give 100 lignocaine. Charging 200. Go, go, go, go, go. Dr Rice. 200? Ready. Clear. ZAP! Ready. Clear! V-fib, no pressure. Have they given him lignocaine? 100's gone in. Press it again at 300. 300. Clear? Still nothing. ALARM CONTINUES Start compression. Kill the alarm! ALARM STOPS Hold up. It's not working. Got to open him! How long? It'll take me 10 minutes. Come on! Nothing. Knife. TENSE MUSIC Internal paddles. Charge to 20. Ready. 20. Hit it. Nada. Go to 30. 30. Hit it. No response. I've got to get back on bypass here. Almost there. Give me seven more minutes. Come on. Come on. Come on. Don't do this! Come on. He's going. He's not going anywhere. EERIE MUSIC Damn! Come on. Don't do this! Come on! (Pants) Dammit! Come on! Tom! Come on! Come on! (Pants) Tom! Come on! That means I'd have to 1 Come on! That means I'd have to get rid of these shoes. Mrs Balford? Oh. Where's the doctor? I'm the doctor. Oh, I'm sorry. I just... That's all right. I operated on your husband. How is he? He didn't survive. What? We restored blood flow to the heart with the operation but he developed a lethal arrhythmia. We were unable to resuscitate him. Wait. I'm sorry. I don't understand. Um...a what? I'm sorry. But...but... Um... Do you... Excuse me. I'm sorry. I'm... What did you say? He's...? What? Oh, my God! Oh, God! Oh, my God! SIREN WAILS OUTSIDE SAD MUSIC (Thinks) On the table. On my table! I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry. What happened? What happened? The graft occluded what? It was textbook! It was textbook! I'm so sorry. The room got so big. I was so small. How did I get so small? I should have gone back earlier. I should have massaged longer. I should have gone back earlier. I should have massaged longer. I lost it. I lost it. Have you ever been seen, Cassiel? You're looking at me. No, not by me, and not by the dying or the delirious. Have you ever been seen... like you were a man? (Laughs) In a diner once, a blind woman turned to me all of a sudden and asked me to pass her the mustard. But she was blind. Ah, but she knew I was there. That doctor in the operating room... ..she looked right at me. She didn't see you, Seth. She can't see you. No-one can see you unless you want them to. And if I want her to? What do you want to do? To help her. MAN: Open it! (Cocks gun) Open it now! Everybody down! Get down! Do it! Do it! OK. (Thinks) Shit! Just give him the money. Did I leave the lights on? I should have gone to Ralph's. DO IT! Relax. I'm doing it, OK? (Thinks) I never saw the Grand Canyon. Come on! I'll never see my grandkids again. (Thinks) What am I doing? Just be cool. Be cool. Be cool, man. Be cool. DOOR SHUTS Holy shit. They don't need to see us. ETHEREAL MUSIC Hey, you're early. (Retches) What's going on? Ferris was looking for you. Maggie. What's going on? I have a mitral valve to do. They cancelled it. Who cancelled it? Sheffield. Why are you telling me? He was busy. He was chicken shit. Maggie, you're sick. I'm not sick. You're sick and you can't operate. They rescheduled it for Monday. It's no big deal. It's unprofessional and it embarrasses me in front of my staff. I saw the chart on Balford. What? I'm on the committee, Maggie. It's on review. It wasn't your fault. I know. Then what's the problem? I don't know. Maggie, you put up a terrific fight. Yeah. We fight for people's lives in here, right? Mm-hm. Don't you ever wonder who it is we're fighting with? So I'm crazy and I'm chemically imbalanced. You're tired. You have moments. Why didn't you call me? Because I never sleep when you stay over. You never sleep whether I stay over or not. You're good. You know it. Come back here Monday and get back on the horse. Doctor? See you. ETHEREAL MUSIC WOMAN: As I walk along the storm shore of the pond... MAN: There's a basin in the north, once an island sea. WOMAN: Anything said probably cannot be said for all that we say is the far-off remembering... WOMAN: ..when she begins to pull away from you, an awareness she once exposed of the recognition of external realities. BOY: Commencing search. WOMAN: What happened to the cards? You could touch the cards. MAN: She's been looking at me for 30 minutes. Maybe if I just hang here a little... WOMAN: I'll see you this evening when my whole body's my sense. WOMAN: What if I screamed? MAN: I have three chairs in my house, one for solitude... MAN: All disappears in spring and the river would flow again after it was frozen. When the cold rains kept on and killed the spring, it was as though a young person had died for no reason. WOMAN: It is as if loneliness were a condition of existence. Most people have an outstretched hand... (Hums contentedly) FOOTSTEPS APPROACH All right. They rescheduled the operation for Monday. What happened yesterday? They had an intramural golf tournament. Who knows with these people? Good morning, Mr Messinger. The 'G' is soft, like 'messenger'. What is that on your lip? What? Am I slobbering here? Where did you get that? What am I - a prisoner? You wanna get well or you want Ben and Jerry's? This operation's a big deal, Mr Messinger. If you're gonna continue to eat like this, you might as well save yourself the 30 grand. Well, Doc, if you'd performed the operation yesterday, like you were supposed to, I'd be sucking carrots through a straw in my arm. What the hell happened? Circumstances weren't optimal for the procedure. Hey. I ain't the procedure. My name is Nathan Messinger and I'm sitting right here. MRS MESSINGER: Miss, can you tell me where the bathroom is? OK. To the left? Yeah, OK. LIFT BELL DINGS CHILDREN'S VOICES GENTLE MUSIC (Child makes siren noises) It's floating. Don't pop it. Don't pop it! (Woman and girl sing) # Do you know the muffin man? # The muffin man The muffin man... # 'ROADRUNNER' CARTOON PLAYS ON TV GENTLE, SAD MUSIC CONTINUES Maggie. Hi, Anne. What are you doing here? I was on my way up to X-ray, and I thought I'd stop in and just...hide. From what? I shoulda gone into paediatrics. Oh, no. Every guy you meet is either married or a gyno. Never date a man who knows more about your vagina than you do. (Baby cries) Oh, poor little guy! Yeah. OK. He never stops crying. What's wrong with him? No insurance. (Soothingly) Yeah. Found him in a dumpster behind the House of Pies. We've worked him up the wazoo for everything, from drug exposure to diabetes. We got nothing. May I? Sure. (Cries) Yeah. Yeah. Did you do an ultrasound? You hear a murmur? Worth a shot. Yeah. OK, baby, yes. So, who are you hiding from? My patient's wife. She wants me to tell her that her husband's gonna be OK, that I have every confidence. And, um... ..I don't. And after all this time and after all this work, I...I suddenly have this feeling that... ..none of this is in my hands. Nothing. And if it isn't...if it isn't, what do I do with that? GENTLE PIANO MUSIC LIFT BELL DINGS SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC BUILDS (Sighs) Excuse me. Are you a visitor? Yes. Well, visiting hours have been over since 8:00. Why do they have that? What? Hours. Doesn't it help the patient, to be visited? Well, who are you visiting? Mr Messinger? Right now? Yeah. You. I don't need a visitor. You're not ill? No. I'm one of the doctors here. Are you in despair? I lost a patient. You did everything you could. I was holding his heart in my hand when he died. He wasn't alone. Yes, he was. People die. Not on my table. People die when their bodies give out. It's my job to stop their bodies giving out, or why am I here? It wasn't your fault, Maggie. I wanted him to live. He is living. Just not the way you think. I don't believe in that. Some things are true whether you believe in them or not. How did you know my name? What's yours? Seth. Seth. GENTLE MUSIC You'd better get out of here, Seth, or Security's gonna think you're a Psych patient. GENTLE MUSIC SWELLS Where are we? Counterweighter. Suction. (Sings in mind) # I am stuck on Bandaid Brown # 'Cause Bandaid's stuck on me # I am stuck on Bandaid Brown 'cause Bandaid's stuck on me! # (Thinks) No dying now, Mr Messinger. Not until you give me Seth's phone number. (Sings in mind) # I am stuck on Bandaid Brown # 'Cause Bandaid's stuck on me. # JIMI HENDRIX GUITAR PLAYS SULTRY MUSIC BEGINS MUSIC CONTINUES (Thinks) Those eyes! The way he looked right... ..right down into me. Seth. What kind of name is Seth? SONG: # You make me feel like a sticky pistil # Leaning into her stamen # You make me feel like Mr Sunshine himself # You make me feel like splendour in the grass # Where we're rolling # Damn skippy baby # You make me feel like the Amazon's running # Between my thighs... # (Grunts) (Sniffs deeply) Hey! Thought you'd be here. Salty. A transplant tagged at 2am. You OK? Yeah. Uh...you might want to return this. The part about the spring - "You knew there'd always be a spring..." How did you know that I'd...? What are you talking about? I didn't give you this book. You didn't? Where'd you get it? Hi. I'm a physician and I think a patient left that in my office. Could you tell me who borrowed it? I can't tell you who. I can tell you when. OK. All right. Give me five minutes. Hello, Maggie. It's nice to see you again. It's weird to see you again. Weird is nice. (Chuckles awkwardly) You like Hemingway? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, I'm starting to. May I? Yeah. "As I ate the oysters, with their strong taste of the sea "and their faint metallic taste, "as I drank their cold liquid from each shell "and washed it down with the crisp taste of the wine, "I lost the empty feeling and began to be happy." He never forgets to describe how things taste. I like that. (Stutters) Do...do you come here a lot? I live here. What do you do? Read. (Laughs) No, I mean your work. Oh. Oh, I'm a messenger. Oh. What kind of messenger? Like a bike messenger? No. I'm a messenger of God. Got a message for me? I already gave it to you. Did you page me? I don't get messages unless you beep me. You've... ..definitely been beeped. (Chuckles) How is Messinger? He's good. Yeah. The operation went really well. It was a good day. It was a good day. Yeah. I didn't kill anybody today. You're an excellent doctor. How do you know? I have a feeling. It's pretty flimsy evidence. Close your eyes. It's just for a moment. (Sighs) ETHEREAL MUSIC (Calmly) What am I doing? (Softly) You're...touching me. Touch. How do you know? Because I feel it. You should trust that. You don't trust it enough. SWIRLING, HEAVENLY MUSIC Let's go somewhere. Where? I don't care. What do you want to do? Anything. GENTLE GUITAR MUSIC (Giggles) What's that like? What does it taste like? Describe it. Like Hemingway. Well, it tastes like, um... ..(Giggles) a pear. You don't know what a pear tastes like? I don't know what it tastes like to you. Sweet. Juicy. Soft on your tongue. Grainy - like... ..sugary sand that dissolves in your mouth. How's that? It's perfect. CLOCK TICKS LIFT BELL DINGS First time I looked in a microscope, that's when I knew I wanted to be a doctor. OK. Let me have your hand. What for? I'll take a look at your blood. Not a possibility. Oh. (Laughs) Men. A woman's threshold of pain is nine times higher than a man's. (Whispers) OK. OK, take a look. Take a look at that. Oh - that's bright. (Laughs) That's me. All those cells. That's all you are. That, and all the space in between. If this is all you are - these cells... ..then, when they die, that's the end. I don't know. I think so. How do you explain it? What? The enduring myth of heaven. I used to think I had it all figured out. But you didn't? No. No. Because... ..something happened. Something happened in my O.R. and I got this... ..this jolt. I got this feeling that there's something... ..bigger out there. There's something bigger than me and bigger than you, and it... Does that sound crazy? No. 'Cause I couldn't fix him. I did everything right and I couldn't fix him. That's not supposed to happen. And I... You cried. Yeah. Why do people cry? What do you mean? I mean, what happens? Physically? Well... ..tear ducts operate on a normal basis to lubricate and protect the eye. When you have an emotion they overact and create tears. Why? Why do they overact? I don't know. Maybe...maybe emotion becomes so intense your body just can't contain it. Your mind and your feelings become too powerful. And your body weeps. PAGER BEEPS I have to go. I gotta go. Stay right here. Don't go anywhere. Stay right there. SOMBRE MUSIC (Chokes) Take the tube out. He can't breathe. The tube is blocked. (Coughs and splutters) (Chuckles) How are you feeling? Ready to hit the waves. I'm afraid your bodysurfing days are over. (Sighs) You've got a mean tattoo going there. What does your wife think of that? That is my wife. (Nurse chuckles) (Sighs) OK. Check his vitals every 15. (Gasps) (Sighs) I can't see you, but I know you're there. Go back and tell them that I'm not going. Not yet. (Coughs) Where have you been? Oh, shit. I totally forgot dinner. Dinner? With who? Well, he's a... ..a...guy I met. I bumped into him and we got something to eat. Did you pack my backpack? What else? Well, er...we talked. And I got beeped. And then he disappeared. Why did you pack my backpack? Hey, Earl! What are you doing? I thought we'd fly to Tahoe, use your uncle's cabin. Huh? What? Oh, God. Is it? Maggie, it's just a tick. Get a match. We're not burning him, Jordan. It has to back out. You can't leave the head. We can't just burn tick heads. Get some alcohol. OK. No, I don't have any. You don't? I don't operate here. How about olive oil? OK. All right. Which kind - jalapeno or rosemary? Rosemary. So what did you and your friend... What did you say his name was? Er...Seth. What did you two talk about? Dying. Jordan, we deal with life and death daily. Why can't we talk about it? I hope you don't start praying in the O.R. WATER RUNS Can we just talk? We can talk while we're camping. Jordan, I can't go camping now. We need to spend some time together. OK. All right. Let's see if we can just spend five minutes. Let's stand still for five minutes and just be together. Doing what? Just being here. I'll get the trail map. No, no. I mean it. Nothing but us. What am I supposed to do? Just look at me. (Laughs) You can't do it. You can't do it. You can't do it! You flinched. You lose. You cheat. Accept it, you lose. (Chuckles) GENTLE, ROMANTIC MUSIC SONG ON TV: # That old black magic called # Old black magic called # Old black magic called love. # Thank you. Thank you very much. We've been talking to mothers who are also members of the KKK. BOOING You want to watch anything? WEATHERMAN: ..feeding into the storm. And some colder air coming along. Me neither. (Sighs) SETH: How do you know when I'm here? I know. Geez, you look good! I forgot how good everybody looked. (Sighs) 30 years of silence. You've got guts, kid. Showing yourself like that - I appreciate that, I do. It's going to make it easier. I've got to tell you, I feel fine. You might check your orders or something, because I don't feel like I'm dying. You're not dying. Oh, right! Then how come you're hanging around my room? I'm the guy with his ass hanging out of his dress. Unless... Could it be... ..the doctor? Ah! Sure! The doctor! (Chuckles) Oh, she's pretty. A little flat-chested, but, hey, all you need's a handful. Who are you? This is good. This is what they call serendipitous. Look that up in the dictionary - you'll see a picture of you and me! (Chuckles) Thank you. Thank you, OK? Ooh! (Sniffles) OK. (Sighs) You ready to deal, huh? Because I can answer all your questions, friend. (Chuckles) How is the French toast this evening? Fabulous. Well, set me up. Mmmm! Guess I should introduce myself. Come on. Put your arm out. Put it in mine. There you go. A little tighter. Tighter. There you go. Yeah. No, now that's too much. There you go! Good grip. Nathaniel Messinger - glutton, hedonist, former celestial body, recent addition to the human race. I don't believe you. You want proof? They hang out in a library. You can speak every language. You can travel with the speed of thought. And you're reading my mind right now. Stop that. You're doing it. It's impossible. Some things are true whether you believe them or not. How? You choose. Choose? To fall to earth. You take the plunge, the tumble, the dive. You jump off a bridge, leap out a window. You just make up your mind to do it...and you do it! You wake up all smelly and aching from head to toe, and hungrier than you've ever been, only you have no idea what hunger is. So it's all real confusing and painful. But very, very good. (Cackles) Human? Hmm. Listen, kid... He gave these bozos the greatest gift in the universe. You think He didn't give it to us too? Which gift? Free will, brother. Free will. GENTLE ACOUSTIC GUITAR MUSIC MUSIC CONTINUES (Nathaniel sighs) Couldn't get a job. No past. No training. No ID. Then one day, I was walking past a building site, a skyscraper. And I thought, I could do that. You see, these people down here, a lot of them are afraid of heights. You know what I'm saying? That makes me uniquely qualified. And besides, it feels like a little bit of home up here. And I like what I do. I'm good at it. Ah, these things will kill ya. (Chuckles) Are there others? Others like you? Yeah, they're out there. You see them, but most of the time you just walk on by. Nobody likes to think of the old life. You know, what they gave up. Then why did you do it? (Sighs) My daughter, Ruth. Her stupid husband, Frank. And my grandkids. Phoebe's four, Hannah's six. (Sighs) And this is my wife, Teresa. Did you... ..tell her who you were? I started to try once or twice. Then I thought, why do that to her? Do what? It's too much for them. People don't believe in us any more. Do they still gather together at sunrise? And sunset, yes. Take me there? LOW, WONDROUS CHOIR MUSIC Can you hear it? No. (Yells) I can't hear that! But you can't feel this! Nathan! RIPPLING, MAGICAL MUSIC You're going to have to go back. Not until I catch the big wave. (Chuckles) Wait. Wait. Wait for what? Swim! Ha-ha-ha! Ha-ha-ha! Then you just... ..fall. Fall? Dive. You make up your mind to do it... ..and you do it. And when you wake up you're... Yes. To smell the air. Taste water. Read a newspaper. To lie. Through your teeth. (Snickers) To feed the dog. Touch your hair. What are you waiting for? SENTIMENTAL ACOUSTIC GUITAR MUSIC There is so much beauty up here. Yes. (Barks) Here you are again. We're releasing your friend, Messinger, tomorrow. That's good. Mmm. His family's having a kind of a welcome home party. Are you, er... Will you be going? Will you be going? (Yaps) This is Earl. He told me. (Chuckles) What else does he tell you? He worries that you never sleep and he loves to see you smile. Sometimes I think that Earl is the only one who understands me. What about your boyfriend? Do you love him? Love? I don't know. What does that mean? I was hoping you could tell me. Well, it's a word that describes a... ..a chemical reac... (Scoffs) Er...er...it's just crap. I'm full of crap. I wait all day just hoping for one more minute with you and...I don't even know you. What do you want to know? Why you wear the same clothes all the time, why won't you give me your phone number? Are you married? No. Are you homeless? No. Are you a drummer? Why don't you ever touch me? I don't want to hurt you. You won't hurt me. SUBTLE WONDROUS MUSIC (Breathlessly) Did you feel that? If I could make you understand... I understand. GENTLE, MELANCHOLY MUSIC (Sighs) I'll see you around. (Whimpers) LOUIS PRIMA'S 'HEY! BA-BA-RE-BOP' PLAYS DISTANTLY HUBBUB OF CHILDREN'S VOICES Hey, Doc. Hey. Nah, give me the whole package. Come here. (Chuckles) Hi. Thanks for coming. You look great. Heh! Is this heaven? Look at this. Come on. Let's meet some people. You got an appetite? Have a beer, Seth. Where are you from? Up... ..north. Er...Canada. Oh, yeah? (Frank Sinatra sings) # That old black magic # Has me in its spell... # Listen. Can you hear? (Whispers) I'm growing. Smile, Hannah! (Chuckles) How long have you known Seth? Not very long. But, er...I feel like I've known him forever. TERESA: No, honey. That hurts. You're just like Grandpa. Come on. Let's see if the cookies are done. Come on! Come on, Seth! Can I help you? Yeah, great. How did you two meet? Er...he works with me over at the site. Construction work. I thought he was a messenger. Yeah. He's one of those, um... hyphenates. I'll be right back. FOGHORN BOOMS LOW, MYSTERIOUS MUSIC Seth! Seth! (Chuckles) Hey. MYSTERIOUS MUSIC Here. Can you cut this up? So what province is it in Canada where you were born? I wasn't born in Canada. What are your parents' names? No parents. You have very delicate hands for a construction worker. I'm not a construction worker. Very, very pale hands. Let me see. Why did you do that? Let me see your hand. No. What's your last name? You know my last name. No, I don't. Plate. Seth Plate? I cut you. I cut you like... I cut you with that knife. I felt it go in. You felt it? Not the way you do. The way I do what? What does that mean? The way a doctor does? The way a woman does? The way... ..a human does. I have no sense of touch. (Sobs) Did you feel that? You don't have to be frightened. You...freak! You liar! What...what are you? I came to take Mr Balford. And I saw you. I couldn't take my eyes off you. How you fought for him. And you...and you looked right at me. Like I was a man. To take Mr Balford? I was there. We're always there in every room. What are you talking about? I was there in the stairwell when you cried for your patient. And I touched you. You remember? Why are you doing this? Because I'm in love with you. (Sighs) I don't believe you. Do you feel that? You don't want to believe me. I cannot conceive of it! Maggie... Just get out! GET OUT! (Sobs) SUBDUED PIANO MUSIC SONG: # Spend all your time waiting for that second chance # For the break that would make it OK... # MAN: Doctor. # There's always some reason... # Doctor. # To feel not good enough # And it's hard at the end of the day # I need some distraction # Or a beautiful release # Memories seep from my veins # Let me be empty and weightless # And maybe I'll find some peace of mind # In the arms of the angel # Far away from here # From this dark hotel room... # Hello? # And the endlessness you feel... # Seth? THUNDER RUMBLES Are you here? # You're pulled from the wreckage # Of your silent reverie... # THUNDER ROARS # In the arms of the angel # May you find # Some comfort here # So tired of the straight line # And everywhere you turn # There's vultures and thieves at your back # That storm keeps on twisting # You keep on building the lies # That you make up for all that you lack # It don't make no difference... # I want to see you. # It's easier to... # Let me see you. # In this sweet madness # Oh, this glorious sadness # That brings me to my knees # In the arms of the angel # Far away from here # In the arms of the angel... # Just stay. Stay till I fall asleep. # Some comfort here. # THUNDER RUMBLES Oh, yes. Thank you. DYNAMIC MUSIC Hey. The baby can't sleep. What? Has anyone ever seen the baby sleep? I don't know. Let's check him out. (Baby cries) Hey, buddy. Come on. There's hardly any air getting through. How did you know? I just...uh...knew. SOLEMN, GENTLE MUSIC KNOCK AT DOOR Maggie? Yeah. Are you alone? Yeah. Pretty intuitive call on the baby. Think so? I couldn't have done it better. Well, that's a compliment. What are you doing? I'm spending time with you. Oh. Will you marry me? We can finally get up to Tahoe. Get married on the Nevada side, honeymoon and be back before we miss a case. What do you want me to do? Get down on my knees? What do you want me to say? We belong together. We're the same species. Jordan. I'm not... You know I'm not very good at, uh...matters of the heart - the proverbial heart. Please be my wife. Just...just think about it. (Sighs) Breathe in. (Breathes in and out) Breathe in. (Breathes in and out) (Chuckles) I'm good. (Sighs) I don't understand a God who would let us meet, if there's no way we could ever be together. He didn't tell you? Tell me what? Maybe you should ask him. No, I'm asking you. Seth knows no fear, no pain, no hunger. He hears music in the sunrise. But he'd give it all up. He loves you that much. I don't understand. He can fall. He can give up his existence as he knows it, he can give up eternity and become...one of us. It's up to you. How do you know this? Because I did it. TENDER, SAD MUSIC Seth? Seth? Seth? (Sighs) Seth, I need to talk to you. Seth, please! Please be here. Oh, God, help me do this. (Sighs) You are so beautiful. You'll always be that way. Jordan asked me to go away with him and get married. He knows me. He knows the demands of my work. You don't love him. He and I are the same. And I want that... ..and I want somebody who can feel my hand when I touch him. But...you can feel me. You felt me. And when I say goodbye... I don't want to see you again. MELANCHOLY MUSIC EERIE VOICES CHANT MUSIC QUICKENS FAST, INSISTENT, EERIE CHANTING CHANTING CONTINUES SILENCE ETHEREAL MUSIC VOICES RATTLING AND CLANKING VOICES MAN WHISTLES MAN: Yoo-hoo! (Workers chuckle) Arggh! Arggh! Ugh! Arggh! (Laughs) Arggh! MAN: Hey. Hey, buddy. You can't be in here. You see me? You see me? Can you see me? Oh, yeah. We can see you all right. Yeah! The invisible drug wore off! Is this blood? This is blood? Is it red? Red. Is it red? (Laughs) Colour. What colour were the drugs you took? (All laugh) You'd better get your butt out of here. You got somewhere to go? Maggie. Maggie! Maggie! (Laughs) (Sings) # Down and down and down I go # Round and round and round I go # Round and spin # Round in the spin I'm in # Lovin' that old black magic called love # Love. # Hi! Hello. Um... Could you tell me how to get to the county hospital? (Speaks aggressively in Asian language) SIREN WAILS VIBRANT MUSIC SIREN WAILS May I help you, sir? I'll just take a moment to catch my breath. (Laughs) Breath! Maggie Rice. Are you a patient? No. I just need to find her, please. Call her office. I'm sure someone there can help you. Do you know where she is? No, sir. I do not know. Well...but... Well, you've got this computer. Mm-hm. And, oh...all this technology. Can't you just look her up? ANNE! Where's Maggie? So you're a friend of Maggie's? What happened to you? Arggh! Sorry. It's OK. Um...I fell. Evidently. Off a train? I fell in love. Anne... ..please help me find her. She went to Lake Tahoe. Her uncle has a cabin on the Nevada side. Wait! SIREN WAILS Cassiel. Are you there? TYRES SCREECH, HORN HONKS Hello. TYRES SCREECH THUNDER RUMBLES MAN: Where are you headed? Tahoe. Reno. Tahoe. I'm going to Reno. I'm going to Tahoe. Hop in. We'll figure it out when we get there. INTRODUCTION TO 'IRIS' PLAYS (Goo Goo Dolls sing) # And I'd give up for ever to touch you # 'Cause I know that you feel me somehow # You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be # And I don't want to go home right now # And all I can taste is this moment # And all I can breathe is your life # When sooner or later it's over # I just don't want to miss you tonight # And I don't want the world to see me # 'Cause I don't think that they'd understand # When everything's made to be broken # I just want you to know who I am. # (Barks) (Barks continuously) (Barks) Earl. (Barks) THUNDER RUMBLES TENDER MUSIC Am I too late? Too late? Jordan. I couldn't marry Jordan. I'm in love with you. What happened? Free will. I feel you. TENDER MUSIC I always asked the dying what they liked best about living. I wrote it down in my book. This is it. This is what I like best. You haven't even started yet. We have our whole lives together. You and me. Mr and Mrs Plate. (Yells) (Seth whoops) Hey. TREMULOUS MUSIC MUSIC SWELLS OMINOUS MUSIC (Moans softly) Maggie! Seth. I'll get help. You're here? I...I should get help. No, no, don't go. The driver went. Please stay with... please stay with me. I'm scared. I screwed up. No. I wanted to show you everything. You will. You came all this...way. I'm sorry. No. Oh, God, no, Maggie. To touch you and to feel you, to be able to hold your hand right now - do you know what that means to me? Do you...do you know how much I love you? Keep looking at me, OK? Look right in my eyes, OK? Someone's out there. Maggie! Oh. Don't look at them. Please, Maggie, no. Please, don't you look at them. Is this what happens? Yes. This is what happens. I'm not afraid. When they ask me... ..what I liked the best... ..I'll tell them it was you. SAD MUSIC God! SOFT TECHNO MUSIC SONG: # There was only the one I recall # It was all so different # Nothing yet has really sunk in # Looks like it always did # This flesh and bone # It's just the way that we are tied in # But this moment on # I'll grieve # For you # It's so hard to move on # Still loving what's gone # Still life carries on # Carries on and on # And on and on... # I can't see you but I know you're there. CASSIEL: I'm sorry. Get out. Seth... Was it you? Were you the one? Were you there? No. Why did He do this? I don't know. Because her number was up? What do you want me to say? Am I being punished? You know better than that. That's life. You're living now. And one day, you'll be dying. What's it like? What? Warmth. It's wonderful. If you had known this was going to happen... ..would you have done it? I would rather have had one breath of her hair... ..one kiss of her mouth... ..one touch of her hand... ..than an eternity without it. One. SAD MUSIC POIGNANT MUSIC JOYFUL MUSIC SWELLS SONG: # Like anyone would be # I am flattered by your fascination with me # Like any hot-blooded woman # I have simply wanted an object to crave # But you # You're not allowed # You're uninvited # An unfortunate slight # Must be strangely exciting # To watch the stoic squirm # Must be somewhat hard telling # To watch them burn me, shepherd # But you, you're not allowed # You're uninvited # An unfortunate slight # Like any uncharted territory # I must seem greatly intriguing # You speak of my love # Like you have experienced love like mine before # But this is not allowed # You're uninvited. # Supertext Captions by the Australian Caption Centre Copyright 1999 www.auscap.com.au Captioned by: Peter Mathey, Ian O'Reilly, Karen Schwartz, Kylie Sinclair and Ann Hobday Caption Editor: Javier Arriaga www.able.co.nz Captions were made possible with funding from NZ On Air. TVNZ Access Services 2011